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Why Does my Mind Want me Dead?

Mindset Management 101… at this time of life

I am a woman of a particular age. Let’s say there are some days during the month where I experience my own personal Summer. I know this time of life is feeding into my current mindset. Nevertheless, I have to find a way to overcome the potential of being debilitated by some of these thought patterns.

This morning for example, after snoozing my alarm a couple of times I eventually opened my eyes and was feeling pretty tired. I wouldn’t say I had had a particularly late night, but these are the breaks some days at this time of life.

So, I’m waking up, emerging from this sleepy fog and my mind is suddenly running with the kind of thoughts that I swear want me dead. Let me elaborated on this. For those of you that don’t know I’m a life coach and currently I am devising some video series for my growing community of Women Creating Success. With regards to the tasks involved with this for the day ahead I hear, perhaps I’m jumping the gun? Probably, I should put this all back a couple of weeks. I mean who do I think I am anyway and how do I know people want any of what I have… I know, right! Honestly, in those few minutes, it got worse before it got better.

Then, by the power invested in The Power of Now (yes, that book by Eckhart Tolle), I shifted over to listening to myself. Those deadly thoughts playing havoc in my mind. What a load of old hogwash wrapped in a threatening dose of procrastination.

Many years ago, a fair few in fact, Tolle’s book introduced me to the power in witnessing my thoughts. A practise which has thankfully never left me. It’s like a programme running in my back end (tee hee) that more often than not, saves me from myself. I can’t tell you how grateful I am.

Short story, short, I hauled my butt out of bed and proceeded with my morning ritual all of which I literally relished. One of these activities is yoga (with Adriene on YouTube). Again, in so much gratitude, welcoming my moments on the mat with the composure and presence of mind, my mind tried this day to hijack. So, so grateful. And so simple. Show up on the mat. Or whatever or wherever it is for you that tames the crazies and opens you up to peace.

If you don’t like something change it; if you can’t change it, change the way you think about it. ~ Mary Engelbreit

If you too are at the time of life, which I fondly refer to as perimeno-hell I can’t recommend yoga enough. Not all energy is thought energy, sometimes it just resides in the body. These wayward and untethered parts can be tamed and tended to by the gently powerful movements in the yogic tradition.

Whatever stage you are at in wanting to succeed in your career, if you have a growing awareness for better mindset management there are many different ways forward. Choose one or a few (as in my case) and start practising.

With that, I’m off to embrace the day.

Wish you well.

With love,

portrait by @naomiwoddis

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